Lisa's Diary reveals the emotions and day-to-day experiences of a real patient in Fort HealthCare's Bariatric Program.

 

Me again!

Since my uniforms are all falling off these days, I went shopping for some new work clothes.  It was nice to have such a nice selection in smaller sizes.  The larger sizes I used to need cost more and came in a lesser variety.  Recently I got my haircut shorter and people at work hardly recognize me! Down over 55 lbs., I feel so much BETTER. I realized that I haven’t held this weight since 1995 when I was in my 30s.  I can only imagine how much better I will feel when I drop another 30-50 lbs.  

Without LAP-BAND®, I would not have lost this much weight. Like you, I tried for so many (MANY!) years. All of those wonderful support programs that mean well and work for many people – just not for me.  I get asked many times if I regret getting the surgery – not a chance! This has been an invaluable tool on my weight-loss journey.  

Keep it up,

Gloria

Hey everybody!


After being in the single-digits for the past week, this nice weather really motivates me to work out!  I needed this.  My exercise routines were becoming stagnant, so I updated my iPod and working out is SO MUCH BETTER!  After my band adjustment (two weeks ago), I have lost 6.5-7.5 pounds…YES, every half pound counts. 



I am still making adjustments to my meal plans and am only able to consume under a cup of food, so I’ve become really picky about what I eat.  Following meals, I don’t feel hungry for about 5 hours.  It’s not that I don’t want the food (in my head I REALLY do) but I am full and I’m learning to follow those hunger cues.  My biggest problem with dieting was that I constantly felt hungry and wanted more. In addition, before LAP-BAND®  I could also take in way more than I should have. 



To help myself with this last adjustment, I bought smaller plates, like coffee cup saucers. 

Before my surgery, I never used these, but now these are the best size for my smaller portions.  The picture is of my lunch – a half can of vegetable soup, 3 crackers, half of a coconut-flavored yogurt with a quarter of a banana.  Surprisingly, I finished most of it but I felt so full!  Yesterday I went out for lunch and my meal consisted of 1 Crunchy Taco Supreme at Taco Bell. I felt stuffed afterward.  Often, I’ll sit back and think about a meal prior to my band and I would be embarrassed to tell you!  Now, I’m saving money…and calories!

“Losing”ly yours,

Gloria

February 9, 2011

THE FIRST ENTRY OF 2011! Better make it a good one!

I was minding my own business, loading my tray in the cafeteria for the pre-Super Bowl celebration that my workplace was having, when someone following my diary took a peek at my selections and reminded me that I hadn’t written anything for a while. I also ran into Lisa Ashwill, the dietitian who helps all of us bariatric patients figure out our diets. No pressure there, right?

I wasn’t too self-conscious; I am what I am, and typically choose wisely. I got the hamburger patty, potato salad and a couple bites of everything else they had to try, but that was pushing it (no doubt I got half the slice of cake down!). Free food always tastes good.

What else? My weight loss is about the same, holding because I’m not doing any exercise other than my nightly hound walk. I tried a promotional deal at a local circuit fitness joint, but I ended up quitting because I just didn’t enjoy it. I still think about working out quite a bit, but unfortunately, thinking doesn’t burn calories. I can honestly say I’m never going to love it like some do, but I’ll continue to push myself a little.

I had my first two vomiting experiences last month, and they were preventable. The first was caused by not chewing well enough, followed by drinking liquids. The second episode was from eating what I shouldn’t have.

I work in a department where I can be called in at almost any time, so personal meals are pretty low on the priority list. I went to grab something quick, so I took a small bite of a donut and a sip of a V-8 — bad choice! I hadn’t even had a crumb of donut since before my surgery, and that little taste did the trick. Maybe I’ll try it again in a year ;)

Not to be gross, but when you throw up food right after you swallow it, it doesn’t have time to get that “icky” taste, so it can ruin the flavor of the food for you. However, if you’re going to vomit, it does happen almost instantly — so if you have any inkling about it, run for a receptacle!

I do want to share a recent shopping experience. Shopping is not generally my idea of “fun.” I was looking at winter jackets and, wonder of wonder, they didn’t have my size! That has always happened to me, but normally because everything was too small. This time they were all too BIG! It’s the first time in my life that I can remember that happening. Good thing, though, because I saw someone this past weekend wearing the jacket I wanted, so I didn’t like it anymore. Saved some bucks there! ;)

I don’t think I will be losing 100 pounds by my one-year anniversary, and I’m not sure if I even want to go that low. We’ll see! I have a medical mission trip to Haiti in the spring that I’m focusing on now, and from what I hear about the food, extra pounds won’t hurt me. I have to take extra precautions in case I would happen to get any food stuck. Rice and beans tend to be a staple there, along with some occasional goat. I would hate to have a goat stuck in my gullet!

Down 66.2 pounds!

Talk soon…

— Lisa

December 26, 2010

Merry (Belated) Christmas!

It’s about time to get down to some serious winter. So far, I’ve enjoyed the winter. Not too cold (which, to me, means not below zero), and some pretty snowfalls. I love the hush after a big snowfall. It makes me think that I should be whispering outside, because nature is.

Enough waxing poetic for the night, and down to the big question:

DID I, OR DIDN’T I?

Well, not exactly — but pretty close! As of Christmas Day, I weighed 197, only one pound short of my goal! I’m okay with that, considering I ate a bunch of garbage before Christmas, but I also exercised a lot — that probably helped me to not gain any more weight over the holidays.

The best part of having the LAP-BAND® during the holidays is that even though I probably ate things I should have, at least I couldn’t eat too much of it! No more “bottomless holiday pit.” I found that having a bite or a small portion of my favorite holiday foods satisfied the urge for them, but I didn’t overindulge because I got full. Oh, happy day! :)

At my last appointment, I didn’t think I was going to be able to get to my goal because I had gained a pound. Actually, I gained five pounds in a day, but there was nothing I could do about it (get it, girls?).

I was feeling like a failure and really beating myself up, but then Dr. Erickson and Patrice set me straight, and I got on with life. It made me so mad because I was working hard, but then I gained weight. Sometimes I’ll lose a couple pounds without trying, but when I gain after working hard and eating right, it really gets my dander up!

I haven’t set a new goal, although it was a great incentive for me. Maybe we should bet!

Any takers? How hard do you want me to work?

I’d like to have 100 pounds off by March, but I’m not sure that’s realistic. I’m at 69 pounds lost right now, and what a difference in my clothes! I’ve gone from size 22 to size 16, and now my jeans are starting to get loose.

That’s not the only thing getting loose… My skin is getting a little droopy as it doesn’t have the elasticity of youth anymore. My double chin has taken on the appearance of double skin. Wouldn’t it be nice if the bariatric program offered free skin de-bulking with every hundred pounds lost? Unfortunately, most plastic surgery is self-pay and that’s not an option for someone in my line of work.

Oh, and it wouldn’t be Christmas without a story about giving. A friend bought me an outfit from Under Armour to work out in, because she knows I don’t like to sweat. Does she know me, or what? Now I’ll have to keep exercising. It’s still not my favorite thing to do!

Until next time,

— Lisa

November 28, 2010

Greetings, all!

Yesterday I ran into someone who is thinking about LAP-BAND® surgery, and it reminded me to check in with all of you. I’m still holding at a total weight loss of 60-64 pounds, depending on the day. I’ve made a goal to lose 10 pounds by Christmas and, come hell or high water, I will do it. I’ve been coasting for far too long.

We are just wrapping up Thanksgiving, which was no big deal because the food didn’t thrill me. Yes, I know, I must be crazy! That’s not the first time I’ve heard that, and I hope it’s not the last :)

I’ve never been a big fan of turkey and all of the trimmings — with the exception of warm rolls and butter (which, if you’ve been reading my blog, you know that bread in general was not in the equation this year — it’s just not worth the pain). I had some mashed potatoes with butter, a small portion of dressing, some corn and a very small piece of dark meat.

I didn’t have pie for dessert, but a small dish of ice cream made me happy. That was that; I had made it through the first big “food holiday” since my surgery. Woohoo!

I am still walking my dogs every day, but I’ve been slacking on the treadmill. I wish there were something that could inspire me to exercise more. I don’t want to hear about “endorphin rushes” and all that — it doesn’t happen for me. Oh, and anything that someone says you’ll “learn to love” is usually something I have an intense dislike for. I guess I’ll just keep plugging away…

As for the person I ran into, when he asked me if I would do it again, my immediate response was, “absolutely!” When he asked about the hardest part, I was honest: Giving up bread and not having beverages before, during and after meals. Don’t get me wrong — I still think this is a great tool for losing weight and maintaining weight loss, but it’s not magic. A lot of people still have that misconception, and for them, it probably wouldn’t work.

That’s all I’ve got for tonight… see you minus 10 pounds in December!

— Lisa

October 6, 2010

Well, a couple of weeks ago I got greedy and I paid for it.

I was slowly losing weight — one or two pounds a month — and decided that needed improvement. At my monthly appointment, I decided I wanted more saline in my band because I felt I was eating too much before getting full. I discussed this with Dr. Erickson and Patrice, and we decided to “tweak” the band. He put in two-tenths of a cc — not much at all.

The next morning, I could barely get my yogurt down. I spoke with Dr. Erickson, who felt we needed to take the saline back out, so we did later that afternoon. I thought it was going to be okay, but my stomach must have been irritated and swollen — for the next week or so, even drinking water was a chore. I thought this was good because I DEFINITELY couldn’t eat much this way! When I couldn’t drink my Diet Pepsi and it took all day to get my morning medication down, it dawned on me — this wasn’t good.

(Plus the fact that I was REALLY cranky didn’t help much!)

Finally, I threw in the towel and called Patrice on a Sunday* to see what she thought, and she agreed that some saline needed to be taken out. On Monday, Dr. Erickson took one cc out. While I stood up to drink some water, it still hung around in the back of my throat. :(

I laid back down and he took another cc out, but when I sat up to drink more water, it wouldn’t go down again. Out came another half cc and the water went down — a good thing, right?

It was a great thing for me, because I felt like I had no restriction at all. I could eat and drink with impunity — but that doesn’t promote weight loss. I actually only gained one pound, because I decided to use restraint instead of just eating whatever I wanted. Still, I could eat nothing like I used to.

Now, it’s a slow process to get things back to where they were, which is perfect for me. I’ve had one cc put back in, and we’ll probably go up from there in two weeks.

THE MORAL OF THE STORY IS:

If you’re losing weight (even slowly) and things are restricted but still comfortable, don’t get greedy! It was like a little vacation once they let it down, but was miserable when it was too tight. That’s my story, and I’m sticking to it.

I’m down between 58 and 60 pounds, depending on the day, but my clothes are fitting differently. I’m not setting any records, but they tell me it’s not a race. You should expect to reach your goal in 12 to 18 months — which might seem like a very long time. I’m still walking my dogs every day, and I’ll go on the treadmill three to four times a week. Love it (not!).

So long for now…

— Lisa

September 7, 2010

Whew! Just got off of the treadmill after two hours!

Okay, maybe it was more like 21 minutes and 34 seconds, but who’s counting?

Time is relative, but I will say I wasn’t sure I knew that toenails could sweat. Maybe they are crying tears of joy since the workout is done, but who can tell? In case you haven’t caught on, I really don’t like exercise — but it’s so much better than hot weather! Finally, some nice temperatures.

First of all, I have been meaning to do some of my entries on video, but I keep forgetting to get the camera. So, I thought I would write something tonight while it was in my little head.

I’m still holding at 55 pounds and am none too pleased. All I can do is continue to do what I have been doing and increase my level of exercise. It has been some time since my last appointment, but I’m thinking of making one soon because, for some reason, I’m starving all the time. Maybe my body is insulating itself for winter? That’s definitely what it’s used to this time of year.

Oh — I was in the grocery store tonight, and the five-gallon buckets of ice cream looked lonely. I’ve been known to take a stray ice cream home at times, but these didn’t look that lonely — yet.

Sorry if I seem long-winded tonight, but I had kind of a stressful day at work — and writing this has been keeping me away from the lonely refrigerator! ;)

Time to face reality,

— Lisa

August 31, 2010

If you live in the Fort Atkinson area and listen to WFAW, you may have heard Patrice, Dr. Erickson and me on the air recently talking about bariatric surgery at Fort HealthCare. It was a little daunting to us but, of course, the good doctor always takes everything in stride. Patrice and I were going to play the laryngitis card and let him do all the talking, but we found out it doesn’t work that way.

Michael Clish, the host, decides who is going to talk and when. He’s a pretty funny guy — after the first couple of minutes, he had us laughing pretty hard. He claims he heard Dr. Erickson say that we do “lap dances” instead of LAP-BAND®, and if you know Dr. Erickson at all, you can imagine the look on his face!

Then, Dr. Erickson’s phone rang (with his “Crocodile Rock” ringtone) not once, but TWICE! How can you not laugh at that?

The best part is, it wasn’t a life-or-death emergency like you’d think it was — it was his golf partner calling to find out the tee time! Ha!

I guess we’re all human, right?

All in all, it wasn’t the frightening drama I’d dreamed up in my head. I was a little concerned when Patrice asked if she could spin a couple of tunes on the radio.

Thank goodness our time was up ;)

Next time,

— Lisa

P.S. The proof is in the pudding — I’ve gone down in scrubs sizes at work!

July 28, 2010

Wow, this summer is flying by! Wish I could say my fat was flying off… but it’s not. :(

I had more saline injected into the band last night, and my official weight loss is at 47 pounds. Not too bad, considering the amount of time (about four months) since my surgery.

However, if you’ve ever dieted and lost weight quickly, only to come to a standstill, you know how frustrating it is. I’m keeping my head up, though.

I haven’t gained weight, so I’m doing OK.

I went to a family reunion last Sunday, and had a GREAT time! There were about 100 people there, and TONS of food! I have to admit — I ate some pretty decadent stuff. Had this event been a year ago, I’d probably still be there eating. I was careful and ate slowly. One plate of food with about a tablespoon each of three or four dishes, and a cut up brat (no bun, of course). After that, I was totally stuffed. My brain wanted to eat, but there was no place for the food to go.

The whole “no liquids before and after meals” thing didn’t work so well, because I always had a beverage of some kind in my hand — it WAS a party, after all! I did ‘fess up to Dr. Erickson and Patrice, and they didn’t seem to be too concerned about it — this time, anyway. It’s not like I do that every weekend!

The people who knew about my surgery kept asking me if I had the band let down for the party — of course that’s a big, fat NOPE. It wouldn’t have made any sense; this isn’t a tool of convenience. If you have that kind of expectation after all the education you go through, then this probably wouldn’t be the weight-loss solution for you. It’s a commitment that needs to be taken seriously.

Speaking of commitments, I have to be truthful with you regarding WHY I’m not losing a lot of weight. I am lacking in my ambition to get off my butt and exercise. I’ve kind of taken a little (OK, big) break from all of that. Just last week, I got back on the treadmill, not as much as I should — but baby steps, right? (Say, “yes!”)

My newest goal is to lose 20 pounds by October 1. An unlikely goal? Perhaps, but it’s worth a shot.

I previously mentioned that I got more saline, and it seems to be making a difference already. Usually it takes a couple days for me to feel the effects, but I really have to concentrate on chewing well — otherwise things don’t want to go down, or it’s a little painful. Not bad, but just a reminder of why I had this done. It’s exciting when you can feel that it’s working, but it can sometimes take a while to reach the correct fill. I’m hoping this is the last one for a long time.

That’s about all I’ve got for tonight.

Oh, wait! In other news, my 16-week-old puppy went from 19 pounds to 34 pounds in ONE month. I finally found someone who can gain weight faster than I can! ;)

I’ll check in again after five pounds. Hopefully, that will be soon.

— Lisa

June 16, 2010

I would like to write about all of the fantastic accomplishments that I’ve had in the past couple of weeks, but I can’t. I’m kind of in a holding pattern right now. Since May 2, I’ve lost just over 43 pounds. Overall, that’s not too shabby — but I can’t help but think I should be down more than that. It’s not like I don’t know what’s happening. Can you guess what it is?

Complacency, that’s what!

I’ve really fallen off my exercise program for a few reasons including laziness, the weather and my new puppy. I could go on and on about Stella (my 9-week-old yellow lab puppy), but I’ll leave it at this — she takes a lot of time and energy. She’s actually sleeping through the night now, but for a while I wasn’t getting any sleep!

On Tuesday, I saw Dr. Erickson and he filled me in a little bit. I think I’m doing OK in that respect, but as I’ve said before, exercise plays a big part in this. The band is a tool to help — but I have to do the leg work, so to speak. Of course, he reassures me that everything is going to plan.

Maybe his plan, but not mine! Ha! ;)

To get myself back on the wagon, I’ve set a goal to lose 15 pounds by July 15 — so I’d better get off my butt and start working!

I know the truth is that I’m the only one who can make this happen, so I’ll talk to you again in a week or so!

Later,

— Lisa